Elle's Temporary Madness.

My brother just hates me, hates my face, hates my character, hates everything about me. For no reason. He’s insane. I did NOTHING to him today and he purposely pushed me off till i banged the wall. Like really? He’s insane. And he said it was my fault because i started it first. Start WHAT!?! I just couldnt take it and went out to chill. Seriously… Since FOREVER, he said he hated me, he said he hates the sight of me, he said he just get annoyed and pissed off even when he sees my face. Now, everything’s my fault when I did nothing at all. You know, when you hate someone so much, everything about her is annoying, everything that she did is wrong and you’ll pick on her with whatever piece of shit that you can find.
Just find this so farked up. I was so angered by his actions and utterly sad by his cause. Like come on, for goodness sakes, why are you always treating me like a foe when I’m your sister. It’s beyond sad i tell you. Urgh. I give up. Hate me for all your life, for whatever reason, hate me till you die if that makes you happy. I mean, what am I, just a piece of shit right OR would that even be an understatement to refer to myself as a piece of shit, yeah? Whatever, I’m sick and tired of you being utterly insensible, overly sensitive and over reacting. Just shut up and dont talk to me. That would be the best of solution. Because whatever I do or DIDNT would just piss you off regardless of situations.
Think, you fool. Think.

Currently going through internship. 2 months 3 weeks - CHECKED. 3 months 1 week left. At times I enjoyed my work, at times, I don’t at all. You know what makes work fun? Friends. But apparently, hmmm… everyone’s busy with their own stuff and there’s not much communication. These days, all I look forward too was Home. I miss my night life at home where I will just stay up all night to watch movies, surf the internet, chatting, play games, read books or just whatever. Went out at 6am, reached home around 8pm and I only have 4 hours to enjoy every single day. Exactly the reason why I always anticipate the end of Fridaysssss and Saturdays. No worries about work, no worries about sleeping hours.

Fine. I’m just too bored. I only talk to my friends during my one hour lunch and on the way back home. Reached home with no one around and no one to talk to because everyone went for a week of short trip getaway to Genting without me. I swear I miss the usual rowdy home of mine. Need. Some. Form. Of. Communication. Pleaseeeeee. Freaking bored..

And the best thing is that, I just feel too lazy to go out. Like come on… 4 hours left before the upcoming day starts? Zzz.
Right now I can’t even decide if school or work is better. Pros of school: fun social life, no worries about sleeping hours or waking up late, cheaper food. Cons of school: Exams. No extra income. Pros of work: Sometimes work can get interesting, extra income. Cons of work: No social life, tracked sleeping hours because you just cant afford to be late, when the workload gets heavy you felt burdened especially if youre nervous about doing them right because there’s no room for mistakes, while others are real friendly and supportive, some can make your day shitty, not much time to chill out.

Okay I’m nagging.

Adious Amigos.

P.S: And there’s no more weekend night soccer to watchhhhh